I've given up entirely on trying to focus on my given tasks for the moment.

I've just heard about the crashes. The airplanes being flown into the World Trade Centre. The US Pentagon being on fire. The Mall being on fire. I'm sickly sitting here and waiting... yes, waiting and praying that there won't be anything e--
The state department. Good God. What the hell is going on here?

I sit here and wait and wait and wait and pray....

...oh my God, the Trade Centre has collapsed.

Please, God, give comfort to those who are left behind and rest the souls of those taken.

I keep wanting to apologize to someone. Keep wanting to say that I'm sorry. That we, as a human species, keep fucking up like this...

I just don't know. Right now I'm crying and I'm wondering how we can call ourselves human when we keep doing... this. How we can perpetuate tragedy on this scale and call ourselves moral, thinking, living people.

Right now I feel so cold and alone. I want to scream to someone and make them listen.

A friend has just said 'words fail'. She's right. Mine have too. More later.

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